Whoops

Ok, so its been a year since my last post... Whoops! I lost track last year due to exams, then the bf suprised me with a 3 week scuba diving holiday, got back and it was christmas, my birthday, the start of a new degree, graduation of the last one and well, the list goes on. Iv been a busy bee.:) so, what has this year taught me... Well for one, i suck at posting regularly. Two- maybe my life is just too busy. I never did mend the relationship with tiger, but i realise now that maybe that friendship wasn such a good thing after all. Life is the best teacher. So, things didn go according to plan. But im happy now, albeit extremely stressed. The main thing iv learnt to trust in this year- my own strength. I can do whatever i put my mind to.

what a weekend

WOW! its been a hectic last few days... first my boyfriend and i attended my first grand ball - aka our competitive ballroom and latin dancing awards ceremony. it was fantastic and unbelievable. we danced all night. next was a mates 21st birthday party. the theme was mad hatter tea party and everyone went all out, it was a killer jol. lastly, and possibly best we spent last night watching the rugby world cup final. go bokke bokke! i am truly proud to be south african. the thing i found to trust in? even when down, you can have fun when surrounded by friends. and your country will always stand together when it counts - regardless of age or race

loss of an alpha

i have, or maybe rather had, this friend - lets call her the alpha tiger. i choose tiger as she is an aloof person, difficult to reach and understand. but i did reach her, or thought i had. you see, she immigrated beginning of this year. we vowed to keep in touch, after all she was the alpha and i the omega of the group. back in june alpha returned for a visit, and things were great... i didn even know when she left again. i was hurt that i wasn told, but quickly forgot the pain when alpha called 3 weeks ago- she was back home! i have however only seen her once since then and it was a stiff uncomfortable reunion. iv tried calling but my every attempt goes unheeded... i miss alpha greatly. so i guess today i can trust that even the strongest of friendships can turn weak, and shatter under pressure

sleeping and breeding

missed two classes today, just slept right through my alarm... not that i missed much. heck! i probably pay more attention in my sleep anyhow. right now though im sitting in animal breeding and were covering the age-old controversial topic of inbreeding. its actually interesting- somewhere back in the day almost all of us have had an incestral ancestral relationship. thats not to say its bad, sometimes keeping the genes within the family is a good thing. take blonde hair for example, or intelligence, or extravertism, or psychosis... wait, that last ones not good ok, back on topic. my view or point on this is that inbreeding isnt always a bad thing. just most of the time- anyone thats seen wrong turn will know what i mean.:) so you can trust that incest 45 generations ago in your family is ok, that inbreeding in farm animals is done fairly often and that me talking about this stuff so soon after waking is a scary thing.;)

the calm, just before the storm

im feeling good, no scratch that- im feeling great. but i dont think its cause i know my work- rather that by only having 3 hours sleep and getting up at 4am has made me numb to any negative emotions that normally would attack me before a paper... its just a half hour to go before my major physiology test and iv found something that i can trust in - after 3 years of studying, tests just dont carry the fear factor that they once did. iv left the mindset that every paper means the world and that failure could bring about the apocalypse... well... it could bring mine, but right now i couldn really care.:)

what the reader can trust

ok, heres a short list of facts that you can trust about me.... 1) i have no interest in changing your views, or forcing mine upon you. 2) im am only 20 years of age, so if i sound naive sometimes, guess what? i am.:) 3) i will do my best to reply to any comment posted